Thursday, January 31, 2008
Praise!
Noticed that I haven't been blogging recently? My laptop was down again. Super stress this week. Went by helpdesk like almost every other day. Feedering between canteen 2 and helpdesk, blk52 and helpdesk. All the walking equates to the exercise I normally do in a month. Did a lot of questioning again like why did God let the problem be solve only to occur again but it's finally ok.
PRAISE THE LORD!
Maybe, he really just wanted me to exercise. Celebrated Vivien's birthday earlier. Sang K at Halo Bar. Super COOL! Didn't know they had such things there over at the Alumni Club House. Sat at Blk 52 after that to play games, take photo and talk. Haha! First time in my 2 yrs at poly celebrating other people's birthday.
PRAISE THE LORD!
Maybe, he really just wanted me to exercise. Celebrated Vivien's birthday earlier. Sang K at Halo Bar. Super COOL! Didn't know they had such things there over at the Alumni Club House. Sat at Blk 52 after that to play games, take photo and talk. Haha! First time in my 2 yrs at poly celebrating other people's birthday.
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Tuesday, January 29, 2008
they kiss again
Just watched episode 7 of they kiss again. Super nice! Aarron was cute. Jiro's part was amazing and my Danson made his first appearance. But why pink shorts??!! Lol! Still love him though. Can't wait for the next episode - Zhi Shu & Xiang Qin's date!
blogged at : 2:30 AM
感叹！
我期待局面会有所改变，
但原来一直以来都只是...
我的一厢情愿！
blogged at : 12:52 AM
photos
Photo of my SYC project members' feet
Classic 'NATURAL' Photo by LIN YANYAN
blogged at : 12:46 AM
Monday, January 28, 2008
Week
Been sometime since I blogged. Reasons? Been busy with assignment and trying to get my room in shape for revision of the exams as well as the CNY. I can't work in a messy environment especially when I can't see my tabletop. Super irritating!! All covered with the materials I used to make the activities for the learning corner. Also, my freaking laptop has been giving so much problems that I didn't even feel like using it but it ok now. So yar, where shall I start
Wednesday night? My mother came home at around 8 telling the maid 'Julia, tomorrow you going home. I got your air ticket already. You can start packing your things.' I froze in my seat. I'm like w.t.h. Ain't she going back next month?? Like even if you send her back, can't you like tell her in advance so she can have some 心理准备 and start packing early. I feel so totally bad. She's been with us for almost a year and I'm kind of used to her though she gets on my nerves some times but generally she's ok. I miss her fussing around me, irritating me every now and tehn, and peering over my laptop when I watch dramas on it. Gave her an angel as a momento
Thursday morning, she flew and I was busy in school doing my EC assignment 3 as well as my AST mini-speech. I'm glad it's over because I stayed up till 3 to draft and practise my speech. I had to hide in the kitchen to avoiding waking my family as I practised out loud. I hope I didn't do too badly. Managed to get 5 orders from the class of which 3 came from Eda. A BIG THANK YOU!!! O-Level's out that day too. Darling didn't do too badly. Asked aroun among the red campers too. Hope they get into the course that they want. Joanne, Jiayou
Friday was the best!! Not exactly from the start but a twist of fate totally made my day. As I said I was packing my room, I started with my wardrobe. Then, I was out before 4 and went to Bugis Street to walk around. My cousin was not tending her store instead, my other cousin's wife was. I doubt she even know me since we like only see each other twice a year, I didn't bother saying high. After walking around, I got a bus to Orchard. Along the way, I got coaxed into spending $45. So, I wasn't exactly feeling good. Then, I reached Ciney and was waiting for the lift. Two lifts opened and I naturally went into the one nearest to me not knowing that it was going down and I was still wondering why everyone went into the other lift. Then, this guy and two girls came in. I didn't thought much of it and was just standing there in the lift. Then, people poured in at other levels. As I moved inwards to allow more space for people coming. I looked at the guy who had came in earlier. He was now standing opposite me. I was about to look away when I sensed this familiarity in the guy like 'Hey! I know him but is it him?' Then, we were like staring quite abit at each other with eyebrows raised and minds whirling away trying to make that connection. Haha! And, it hit us. We are primary school friends!!! Lol! Waved 'Hi' and talked only when we were out of the lift. So, surprise surpise*** Gosh, suddenly miss those good ol' days. Then, we text away since he was going for a movie with his friends and I wanted to get my CDs. Sort of regretted. The CDs that I got was not the full edition. Didn't check carefully. Was much too excited at finally being able to listen to KATTUN again.
Continued packing my room on Saturday and gave tuition in the afternoon. Went for dinner with my cousin's family at Chomp Pang in Bendeemer. So, that's where they have shifted from Marina South and so near somemore. Haha! Expect me to drop by often because steamboat's my life. Seriously!! Am super happy. Don't have to go all the way down to Marina le. Wahaha!
Sunday was horrible. My freaking laptop refuse to allow me to open my C, D, E dive. Power sia! And I panicked. I had a rather heavy weightage assignment to submit and my laptop's doing this to me. Managed to churn out my assignment still but my temper was really horrible. Went to the helpdesk today and was practically jumping for joy when they managed to fix the problemS. Haha! Went for CF again. Had fun
PRAISE THE LORD!!!
My life's getting better, the assignments are clearing up, my parents' relationship is improving, my room's neater and cleaner, my laptop's ok and I'm a happier person. Yeah
Boring entry??
Will upload pictures soon.
Wednesday night? My mother came home at around 8 telling the maid 'Julia, tomorrow you going home. I got your air ticket already. You can start packing your things.' I froze in my seat. I'm like w.t.h. Ain't she going back next month?? Like even if you send her back, can't you like tell her in advance so she can have some 心理准备 and start packing early. I feel so totally bad. She's been with us for almost a year and I'm kind of used to her though she gets on my nerves some times but generally she's ok. I miss her fussing around me, irritating me every now and tehn, and peering over my laptop when I watch dramas on it. Gave her an angel as a momento
Thursday morning, she flew and I was busy in school doing my EC assignment 3 as well as my AST mini-speech. I'm glad it's over because I stayed up till 3 to draft and practise my speech. I had to hide in the kitchen to avoiding waking my family as I practised out loud. I hope I didn't do too badly. Managed to get 5 orders from the class of which 3 came from Eda. A BIG THANK YOU!!! O-Level's out that day too. Darling didn't do too badly. Asked aroun among the red campers too. Hope they get into the course that they want. Joanne, Jiayou
Friday was the best!! Not exactly from the start but a twist of fate totally made my day. As I said I was packing my room, I started with my wardrobe. Then, I was out before 4 and went to Bugis Street to walk around. My cousin was not tending her store instead, my other cousin's wife was. I doubt she even know me since we like only see each other twice a year, I didn't bother saying high. After walking around, I got a bus to Orchard. Along the way, I got coaxed into spending $45. So, I wasn't exactly feeling good. Then, I reached Ciney and was waiting for the lift. Two lifts opened and I naturally went into the one nearest to me not knowing that it was going down and I was still wondering why everyone went into the other lift. Then, this guy and two girls came in. I didn't thought much of it and was just standing there in the lift. Then, people poured in at other levels. As I moved inwards to allow more space for people coming. I looked at the guy who had came in earlier. He was now standing opposite me. I was about to look away when I sensed this familiarity in the guy like 'Hey! I know him but is it him?' Then, we were like staring quite abit at each other with eyebrows raised and minds whirling away trying to make that connection. Haha! And, it hit us. We are primary school friends!!! Lol! Waved 'Hi' and talked only when we were out of the lift. So, surprise surpise*** Gosh, suddenly miss those good ol' days. Then, we text away since he was going for a movie with his friends and I wanted to get my CDs. Sort of regretted. The CDs that I got was not the full edition. Didn't check carefully. Was much too excited at finally being able to listen to KATTUN again.
Continued packing my room on Saturday and gave tuition in the afternoon. Went for dinner with my cousin's family at Chomp Pang in Bendeemer. So, that's where they have shifted from Marina South and so near somemore. Haha! Expect me to drop by often because steamboat's my life. Seriously!! Am super happy. Don't have to go all the way down to Marina le. Wahaha!
Sunday was horrible. My freaking laptop refuse to allow me to open my C, D, E dive. Power sia! And I panicked. I had a rather heavy weightage assignment to submit and my laptop's doing this to me. Managed to churn out my assignment still but my temper was really horrible. Went to the helpdesk today and was practically jumping for joy when they managed to fix the problemS. Haha! Went for CF again. Had fun
PRAISE THE LORD!!!
My life's getting better, the assignments are clearing up, my parents' relationship is improving, my room's neater and cleaner, my laptop's ok and I'm a happier person. Yeah
Boring entry??
Will upload pictures soon.
blogged at : 10:38 PM
Monday, January 21, 2008
over 4 days
Life's been really busy for me. Last fall back on Saturday first. I went down for Open House and stayed throughout even canceling my tuition. It was less taxing probably because the hateful teachers are not around and lots of familiar faces dropped by. Saw Pauline, Rand, Sebas and their gang, Sabrina, Isaiah and his friends, Myra and her friends and more importantly, ZHSS friends and juniors. Got my hands on the goodie bags by having Rand, Sebas and Isaiah to help take. There were free doughnuts too not that I'm such a fan of them. After Open House, went by Wei Jie's house. Seriously, I can survive in a house of dogs. Haha! When I reached, Wei Jie and my brother were gaming. While I was taking Laksa, my godsisters arrive. Was expecting Isaiah but turn out, he didn't come. My 'boyfriend' came by though which was totally unexpected. Apparently, she went by NP but didn't inform me. Sad! Anyway, was probed about my mum and all by the adults. Haiz! What can I say? They quarreled so she ain't turning up. Happy?? Drank a bit. Masterpiece of Uncle Sum. Not only the beer. There was mango ice-cream too!!! Fell asleep while watching tv. Probably too tired...
Didn't turn up for church and apparently, Joanne went. The two of us just ain't meant to meet. Lol! Watched tv in the morning. In fact, it was about 11.55 when I woke up so not exactly morning. Caught a documentary on 'Stigmata' and am very much intrigued by it. Spend the rest of my day working on my assignments and watching The Drive Of Life. Actually, what's there to blog? Why should I even be blogging about how shit my life is? Was pretty glad that Kor talked to me. As in he offered some support in a way and am very much touched. But the thought will do. And thank you all for leaving tags to encourage me or been concern or me. Really, a BIG thank you!!!
Went to the centre for my last math lesson plan. Yesh!!! One more lesson and I'm done with FP but there's like 3 evaluations waiting for me to complete and one overall evaluation. Shoots!! Super tired recently. Don't know why. Perhaps, I'm to physically and emotionally drained. Did some grocery shopping before returning home and heading to school. Was 45 mins late. First time in my life I'm so late for school. Oh! Went for CF after school too but class ended early so I sat and talked with Yen, Alina and Vivien for abit before heading over. Saw Kor and so many people turned up for CF. I'm wowed over!!! Covered some really interesting topics.
这是我期盼已久的自由，但随着他的代价并不是我所想象的。
Didn't turn up for church and apparently, Joanne went. The two of us just ain't meant to meet. Lol! Watched tv in the morning. In fact, it was about 11.55 when I woke up so not exactly morning. Caught a documentary on 'Stigmata' and am very much intrigued by it. Spend the rest of my day working on my assignments and watching The Drive Of Life. Actually, what's there to blog? Why should I even be blogging about how shit my life is? Was pretty glad that Kor talked to me. As in he offered some support in a way and am very much touched. But the thought will do. And thank you all for leaving tags to encourage me or been concern or me. Really, a BIG thank you!!!
Went to the centre for my last math lesson plan. Yesh!!! One more lesson and I'm done with FP but there's like 3 evaluations waiting for me to complete and one overall evaluation. Shoots!! Super tired recently. Don't know why. Perhaps, I'm to physically and emotionally drained. Did some grocery shopping before returning home and heading to school. Was 45 mins late. First time in my life I'm so late for school. Oh! Went for CF after school too but class ended early so I sat and talked with Yen, Alina and Vivien for abit before heading over. Saw Kor and so many people turned up for CF. I'm wowed over!!! Covered some really interesting topics.
这是我期盼已久的自由，但随着他的代价并不是我所想象的。
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Friday, January 18, 2008
AH!
Woke up with a horrible sore throat today. I wonder if it's due to me over-straining it yesterday or that psychologically my body responded to my unhappiness of working with my teacher for open house. Whatever the case, I decided to give my duty a miss and rest at home. But how can I rest well with assignments to rush and my house to tend to. My mum really meant it when she said 以后你们的是我都不管了. Now, she washes her own clothes and eats out. Meaning? The rest of the family's clothes are piling up in the laundry and we haven't had home-cooked dinner since the quarrel. She's not doing the grocery shopping and I'm definitely not getting my pocket money or transport fees anymore. I even worried that my dad would be financially strained now that he gave my mum 家用 but she's not using it on the home. My dad's settling our eating out and most likely if I can't manage I'll have to get pocket money from him. So I'm really looking around for jobs to support myself even if it's by a little bit. I'm considering if I should go for YEP with my family like that. Can someone help me? I'm so lost, so stress, so tired...
I can't balance sch, assignments, household stuff and work if I really lend myself in one. I remember telling people that 24 hrs not enough. I need 48 hrs. Now, I think I need 72 hours. AH!!! God, how can I cast my burdens on you? I can't see what you have for me or what good will come out of this incident. Now, I recall. Maybe, just maybe KL was your making-up to me in advance...
Now for something unrelated. Wasn't exactly in the mood but as I had promised earlier, I had no choice but to turn up. It was a great concert still. Thanks Kor!
I can't balance sch, assignments, household stuff and work if I really lend myself in one. I remember telling people that 24 hrs not enough. I need 48 hrs. Now, I think I need 72 hours. AH!!! God, how can I cast my burdens on you? I can't see what you have for me or what good will come out of this incident. Now, I recall. Maybe, just maybe KL was your making-up to me in advance...
Now for something unrelated. Wasn't exactly in the mood but as I had promised earlier, I had no choice but to turn up. It was a great concert still. Thanks Kor!
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Thursday, January 17, 2008
OpenHouse Day1
Today was freaking horrible for me. Well, it sort of began yesterday night when my parents literally screamed at each other. For once, I felt nothing, not scared, not afraid, not affected. At least, not as much as before. So much that I could continue watching dramas on my laptop that my bro asked, 'How can you be so carefree'. Then come today, I was very upset and irritated when the teachers just want things done their way and do not take our opinions into consideration. Damn! And you know how overwhelming Open Houses can be. There was only like 6-8 of us working to talk to the students and to engage them in our activity. What does she want? There's only one me, one pair of aching legs, horrible sore throat, a dry mouth and I'm only human. Can YOU like freaking give me a break? After like going a few rounds with the different students coming in, I was just about to take a break when I hear my name to bring another group. When I just ended, I hear my name again. JOYCE! JOYCE! JOYCE! For once, I hate my name. And what's that? Other then calling out my name, your mouth has no other purpose is it? Can't you interact with the students yourself? Aren't you a lecturer in the school? Is it only the student's role to be talking to the students and your role to be that of standing there like a vase? Can't you see we are all freaking busy? If you ain't helping then get yourself out of the room! Shit! My blood pressure's rising already. That's not all! What really pissed me off was when this group of students came in and I got them to leave their belongings at the side. Then, I asked if they wanted to join the on-going music and movement activity. They said, "IT'S OKAY! WE'LL JUST LOOK AROUND" Then, I left them to LOOK AROUND and she actually called me saying, "they want to join the activity bring them over". And I replied, "No! They want to just LOOK AROUND" Guess what? That woman actually got pissed with me and insisted firmly, "they wanted to join but you walk away" What the hell!!! Were you the one talking to them or was I the one. They said they want to WALK AROUND so what do you want me to do? Like freaking insist like you freaking did and impose your ideas on them: YOU MUST PARTICIPATE BECAUSE I THINK YOU WANT TO. Or drag them into the circle. GET REAL! It's not like I'm getting paid or anything. I'm volunteering my time and energy into this event for this?? and some lousy CCA points. I don't even understand how I got myself into this. For the second time, I consider leaving the club. Not that I'm running away from problems but I see no point in doing things that I don't enjoy. Why should I waste my time getting my blood boil when I can be home like my other friends working on their assignments? And it's not like I'm being appreciated. I pack the room, unpack the boxes, put the things away and then, help out for Open House. All I get is this?? You go on and on how we should be but it doesn't make sense. I just feel much more resentful. I'm worn off...
And when I got home, my brother turns up telling me. There's no dinner. I'm like where's mum and he went dunno, never call her. Then what you want me to do? You got no dinner you don't know how to check with mum or go but something back? What do you take me for? I just got home ad you give me this shit? So I'm suppose to like buy dinner while you continue gaming? What the hell? You were the cause of their quarrel and then you asked me how I can be so carefree. Check yourself out today! Shoots. I think I'm getting so resentful that now I'm pissed with my bro when I wasn't earlier. Anyway, talked to some friends today. Thing about Awal, he doesn't broach on the topic. He talks about everything else and keeps my mind off things. Talked with Yanyan too. We both poured out quit a lot over each other. Alina too. Thing is both of us ain't communicating. Lol! It is as though we both just want to talk and get things off...And Kor wanted to talk to me too but I was too sick of repeating it all over. So yar. This entry is dedicated to him and all of you who are interested in how horrible my life has been these days.
And when I got home, my brother turns up telling me. There's no dinner. I'm like where's mum and he went dunno, never call her. Then what you want me to do? You got no dinner you don't know how to check with mum or go but something back? What do you take me for? I just got home ad you give me this shit? So I'm suppose to like buy dinner while you continue gaming? What the hell? You were the cause of their quarrel and then you asked me how I can be so carefree. Check yourself out today! Shoots. I think I'm getting so resentful that now I'm pissed with my bro when I wasn't earlier. Anyway, talked to some friends today. Thing about Awal, he doesn't broach on the topic. He talks about everything else and keeps my mind off things. Talked with Yanyan too. We both poured out quit a lot over each other. Alina too. Thing is both of us ain't communicating. Lol! It is as though we both just want to talk and get things off...And Kor wanted to talk to me too but I was too sick of repeating it all over. So yar. This entry is dedicated to him and all of you who are interested in how horrible my life has been these days.
blogged at : 10:46 PM
Monday, January 14, 2008
奉劝
我到底还在期待什么呢？到了现在难道还会有奇迹出现吗？如果奇迹真出现了，我可以接受吗？不，我更本不该去想。因为不可能，所以婷，你还是随意而安吧！
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sun n mon
Spent my early afternoon at my grandfather's. Went over to his house after practicum. Been feeling bad that he left our house because mum angered him so I felt obliged to visit him but could hardly find time. White space came as a timely moment which not only gave a more time to do what I wanted but also more freedom in the time I choose to work on my assignment. Shucks! My fingers are aching from too much craft work yesterday when I worked on my learning corner materials. Anyway, grandfather cooked a fish for me! It's so long since I ever tasted his cooking. Miss the steam fishes~~
Dropped off at amk hub and walked a around a bit before taking a bus home. However, I decided to walk around some more and alighted at Shaw Plaza. It was pouring when I wanted to leave so I took a bus to my other grandfather's house instead. Fell asleep while waiting for dad to get off work and bike me home.
Life's getting better. I finally can watch vids on crunchyroll and am already 1/3 through The Drive Of Life. Can't wait to finish the show. OOHHhhhh, Raymond rocks!!! Wonder when Ron when make his appearance too. What really made my week was receiving a mail from Gaffar. Admist the assignments and video viewing, it's so nice to hear from a good ol' friend.
Wanted to blog about yesterday to which was quite an emotional day for me....
再不直不觉中，我似乎压抑了自己的情感。或许是在和小妹交谈后，这一些像是被上了锁般的感情顿时间都一同拥了出来。之前的我一直在逃避，让自己不去想。即使无意间想起了，我也会使法让自己不去想。现在，我无时无刻都会想起。别人的一举一动会让我想起，自己的行为也可以联想起。突然觉得自己好糟糕。那两个礼拜像是做了一场梦一样，但是好是坏我已分不清也不想知道。
I came across this song in 樱野3+1 and feel for it a lot
其实你懂我
陈乔恩
我到底是谁
在你心中占有怎样的地位
你不说清楚
你让我们的爱坠在七里雾
爱 很讨厌
总是忽近又忽远的让人追
追半天
你连抱歉
一句抱歉也不给
我向前走
低着头
眼泪不停向后流
一直走
不回头
希望你会找到我
但是始终不如愿
希望都落空
我仍相信
其实你懂我
我发誓千遍
我这一走你就无法挽回
虽然心会痛
总比受尽委屈还要更好过
我 等了等
脑海始终浮现你对我的好
好半天
你连Baby
一句安慰也不给
其实你爱我
一前 一后
你跟在我的背后沉默
Yeh…Yeh…Yeh…
前前 后后
希望你握住我的手
Yeh…Yeh…Yeh…
Wo..Wo..Wo..
我向前走
抬起头
擦掉眼泪向前走
一直走
不回头
相信你会找到我
梦里寻他千百遍
希望都实现
我不想走
无法心不动
我向前走
抬起头
擦掉眼泪向前走
一直走
不回头
相信你会找到我
梦里寻他千百遍
希望都实现
我仍相信
Dropped off at amk hub and walked a around a bit before taking a bus home. However, I decided to walk around some more and alighted at Shaw Plaza. It was pouring when I wanted to leave so I took a bus to my other grandfather's house instead. Fell asleep while waiting for dad to get off work and bike me home.
Life's getting better. I finally can watch vids on crunchyroll and am already 1/3 through The Drive Of Life. Can't wait to finish the show. OOHHhhhh, Raymond rocks!!! Wonder when Ron when make his appearance too. What really made my week was receiving a mail from Gaffar. Admist the assignments and video viewing, it's so nice to hear from a good ol' friend.
Wanted to blog about yesterday to which was quite an emotional day for me....
再不直不觉中，我似乎压抑了自己的情感。或许是在和小妹交谈后，这一些像是被上了锁般的感情顿时间都一同拥了出来。之前的我一直在逃避，让自己不去想。即使无意间想起了，我也会使法让自己不去想。现在，我无时无刻都会想起。别人的一举一动会让我想起，自己的行为也可以联想起。突然觉得自己好糟糕。那两个礼拜像是做了一场梦一样，但是好是坏我已分不清也不想知道。
I came across this song in 樱野3+1 and feel for it a lot
其实你懂我
陈乔恩
我到底是谁
在你心中占有怎样的地位
你不说清楚
你让我们的爱坠在七里雾
爱 很讨厌
总是忽近又忽远的让人追
追半天
你连抱歉
一句抱歉也不给
我向前走
低着头
眼泪不停向后流
一直走
不回头
希望你会找到我
但是始终不如愿
希望都落空
我仍相信
其实你懂我
我发誓千遍
我这一走你就无法挽回
虽然心会痛
总比受尽委屈还要更好过
我 等了等
脑海始终浮现你对我的好
好半天
你连Baby
一句安慰也不给
其实你爱我
一前 一后
你跟在我的背后沉默
Yeh…Yeh…Yeh…
前前 后后
希望你握住我的手
Yeh…Yeh…Yeh…
Wo..Wo..Wo..
我向前走
抬起头
擦掉眼泪向前走
一直走
不回头
相信你会找到我
梦里寻他千百遍
希望都实现
我不想走
无法心不动
我向前走
抬起头
擦掉眼泪向前走
一直走
不回头
相信你会找到我
梦里寻他千百遍
希望都实现
我仍相信
blogged at : 7:02 PM
Sunday, January 13, 2008
quote
原来有很多事情是会来不及的。时间是不会等待任何人的。
blogged at : 2:54 AM
Saturday, January 12, 2008
fri
Talked to Myra today. Felt good that she opened up to me. At the very least, I know what's bothering her and that she isn't bottling everything up in her. Makes me realize even more that as humans, we all have our own problems. As I'm worrying over something, many of my friends may be troubled over others. Maybe because I used to be alone so much that I know that loneliness is really something that anyone should go through. And as I went though it, all the more I don't want my friends to be going through the same thing too. I just want them to know that I'm always around if they need. Perhaps, I'm too used to getting myself worried about problems about others or I am just using their worries as excuses to not think about my own.
After talking with xinyi, I'm starting to wonder if all along I've been pretending to be ok or I'm really ok? I'm not so sure but there are times when seeing makes me recall and I know I've not put it behind. Not mentioning it, does it really mean I'm over it or that I just don't want to touch on the topic? Seriously, mei reads me like a book and it caught me by surprise. Her words just hit me so hard I cried! I did even though I had been telling myself I would not but I still did. After these few weeks, I finally let my emotions go. Was I trying to be strong or trying to indulge in self-denial or trying to pretend that nothing's wrong and I'm long over it? I don't know.
我真得很努力的尝试了，但一切并非在我掌控之中。我最后还是忍不住哭了。
After talking with xinyi, I'm starting to wonder if all along I've been pretending to be ok or I'm really ok? I'm not so sure but there are times when seeing makes me recall and I know I've not put it behind. Not mentioning it, does it really mean I'm over it or that I just don't want to touch on the topic? Seriously, mei reads me like a book and it caught me by surprise. Her words just hit me so hard I cried! I did even though I had been telling myself I would not but I still did. After these few weeks, I finally let my emotions go. Was I trying to be strong or trying to indulge in self-denial or trying to pretend that nothing's wrong and I'm long over it? I don't know.
我真得很努力的尝试了，但一切并非在我掌控之中。我最后还是忍不住哭了。
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Friday, January 11, 2008
05-03
Check out the photos taken today of 05-03!!!
It's a room put together by Lucy and the ECH Club for the Open House.
It's a room put together by Lucy and the ECH Club for the Open House.
Calling Lucy~~
That tail reminds me of Conal's yrs before
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tues & weds
Photos of Tuesday and Wednesday
saw kor on tues when we were playing those lame games that supoosedly tests one's IQ
saw kor on tues when we were playing those lame games that supoosedly tests one's IQ
look at how the assignments are tiring us out??! my friends taking a power nap before class
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